unexpected ending

2012-01-26T21:15:00.000-08:00

i have a confession to make.
i actually do not want to leave my school.
but the more im there, the more i realize how unwanted i am.
so in that case, i know that i need to leave.
i have a lot of friends that i don't want to leave- well, i used to have a lot of friends.
it sucks. really. to be in such a depressing state.
to think that a few months ago, i thought this was going to be the best year ever.

so much for everything.
i try give the school a better team TWICE.
i try hide about 90% of my pain by acting retarded most of the time.

i know i'm unwanted, useless, and a idiot. which doesnt make sense when the school doesn't just kick me out like how my dad wants it to be. whenever i talk to someone at school, its pointless because i know they hate me and they'll never realize how rough it is just to get to school. keeping a promise/secret is hard. but living a secret is much much harder. no one will read this because well, everyone just stopped. but if anyone gets this, please know that i actually do not want to leave my school but that i need to.

And yes. if you are wondering. this is my unexpected ending.

taylor: part 2

2012-01-14T21:37:00.000-08:00

sometimes...

those who appear invisible are truly the most amazing creatures in the world

i hope shes happy (5)

2012-01-14T13:10:00.000-08:00

i still think that you get whatever you want.
you pick and choose your friends like candy from halloween.
you bully me
and you still don't understand why...
why i suddenly turn quickly and walk away from you.
why i pretend to be busy sometimes, so i don't have to deal with you everyday.
why so many people aren't your 'candy' anymore.
and how i "didn't see you" when you said hi.

i know you don't even look at this blog.
and...
i don't care if you have people reading this for you like slaves.
i don't care if rumors of this trails to you.
just know that everything i say here is true.
i hope your happy.

globalization

2012-01-14T12:49:00.000-08:00

Question:
What is the truest definition of Globalization?

Answer:
Tragically, Princess Diana’s death.

Question:
Why?

Answer:
An English princess with an Egyptian boyfriend crashes in a French tunnel, driving a German car with a Dutch engine, driven by a Belgian who was drunk on Scottish whiskey,

followed closely by Italian paparazzi on Japanese motorcycles;
treated by an American doctor, using Brazilian medicines.

This is sent to you by an American, using Bill Gate’s technology and you are probably reading this on your computer,

that uses Taiwanese chips and a Korean monitor, assembled by Bangladeshi workers in a Singapore plant; transported by Indian lorry-drivers, hijacked by Indonesians, unloaded by Sicilian longshoremen and trucked to you by illegal Mexican workers…

And that is what Globalization is.

stronger

2012-01-14T12:44:00.000-08:00

wut doesnt kill you makes u stronger.

so instead of being sad, im happy (:

vans

2012-01-13T00:13:00.000-08:00

revival

2012-01-12T22:25:00.000-08:00

just trying to get by so that someday everything will change <3

taylor : part 1

2012-01-11T22:53:00.000-08:00

my life seems to be the same things over and over again...

its just like going in a circle.

and im tired.

but.

i need to keep going...

ace the tests that fall ahead of me...

defeat the bosses of each level...

and answer what brought me here...

theres only one candle left.

only one hope.

lets pray that all goes well <3

because

2012-01-08T14:46:00.000-08:00

i live because i can.

but i thrive because i will.

be yourself

2012-01-08T14:40:00.000-08:00

if there could be one thing....

2012-01-04T20:59:00.000-08:00

if there could be one thing that i could be better at... that would be this...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=d9OJjiGw7QA&feature=channel_video_title

2012 kicks off well :)

2012-01-03T20:26:00.000-08:00

today was fun :)
1st day back to school!
i got bangs and tried to clip them up today, but at least 20 people stole my clip D:<
truth or dare on my phone is ALWAYS FUN :D

forever together

2012-01-02T20:14:00.000-08:00

we'll be forever together.

love is just an equation

2012-01-02T20:10:00.000-08:00

love is just an equation.

love is beautiful

2012-01-01T15:05:00.000-08:00

2012

2012-01-01T12:19:00.000-08:00

2011 and 2012 will never be the same...
because...

2012 summer olympics (MICHEAL PHELPS)
the world will end on the winter solstice as told by the Mayans (my sisters b-day)
you have to change the one in 2011 to a two (going to take sometime to remember)
oh and it's no longer the year of the rabbit but the year of the dragon

Who has a feeling this year is going to kick-ass??
i do!!

so true

2011-12-30T14:46:00.000-08:00

all you need is a little imagination

2011-12-27T13:45:00.000-08:00

2011 Buh-Bye (Jib-Jab)

2011-12-27T12:58:00.000-08:00

2011 Buh-Bye

dear 2011,

that was...

stupid, hectic, crazy, fun, sad, scary, bleh, yay, whoop, kick-ass, recovery, ehh, gaga, average, exotic, demented, weird, rainbow, easy, last harry potter movie, sarcastic, AWKWARD, stupid, ARGH, friday friday gotta get down on friday, twss, mean, same, dramatic, awesome, gay, jealous, happy, cruel, bieber, harsh, wtf, deep, okay, fuzzy, short, seriously?, lovely, great, amazing, long, fast, high, yayy 2012, fat, BOO, debt :(, true, really LiLo?, epic, a fairytale wedding without the fairytale ending, nom nom nom, hard, fake, CAPS, torn, hell ya, depressed, monster, friendship....

2011 was full of basically EVERYTHING.

thanks :)

--tayy

United Stats of Pop 2011: World Go Boom

2011-12-26T22:37:00.000-08:00

United States of Pop 2011 (World Go Boom)

another DJ Earworm Mashup <3

btw, he just posted this on Youtube YESTERDAY!!!

<3 <3 <3

whoop, congrats on another year ;)

hoo... that went fast, ehh?

<3 <3 <3

dear 2012,

you better kick-ass. no, don't make another movie called "kick-ass" because i'm not going to sit through another of those... beware, 2011 was crazy. yet, it was only a year of recovery. haha, almost getting suspended those few times totally cracked me up, i'm seriously still shocked how i didn't get actually suspended yet... and how summer went by so fast... oh yeah, the zoo and AQUAMAN days were the bomb. i didn't know a girl (so invisible as me) could make so many friends and inside jokes in just one frikin year. don't forget all that drama too! i am so happy that i didn't quit cross-country for dance :) a ton happened, no jokes. not the mention the stupid habits i've picked up along the way -_- what more could a girl want? i mean, i did a whole bunch of art and charity done. but, like i said before, 2011 was just a year of recovery. 2012.... you better kick-ass.

because.

i'll.

be.

back.

from...

taylor, TNL, TNT, Teriyaki, NOM NOM MONSTA, batman, princess, lunch, tate, tyler, tay, t, lee, royal-t, agent T, tinker bell -_- (don't ask), TNL TNT, TNL da swimmer, TNT da bomb, mermaid, hahah and the other nicknames you gave me :)

Merry Christmas! (LATE!!)

2011-12-26T11:47:00.000-08:00

merry christmas!

sorry, im about 9 hours late where i live

but i hope you had a good one <3

one of those quotes

2011-12-22T21:17:00.000-08:00

~(about the wardrobe in "Prince Caspian")~

I felt awkward when they first gave me the shirt and it had like flowers on it. And I was like, "Really? Flowers? Flowers on the shirt?" But when they showed me, "Yeah, but later on you get the big armor with the lion on it." I was like, "Okay. Cool. Trade."

-- Ben Barnes <3

today... (ep. 2: santa)

2011-12-22T13:40:00.000-08:00

cousin: i think santa moved...
me: what? why?
cousin: because i check my toys from last year and they all said 'made in china'

which witness are you?

2011-12-21T13:10:00.000-08:00

if you have a google account im pretty sure you can comment :)

theres a new page!
http://unexpectedending.blogspot.com/p/murder-story.html
which witness are you?

less than three

2011-12-21T11:41:00.000-08:00

LMFAO

2011-12-20T14:28:00.000-08:00

jiggly-puff <3

quotes

2011-12-20T11:53:00.001-08:00

"finding other people's quotes = lazy, make up your own crap."

--taylor

10 things that i learned in 2011

2011-12-20T11:48:00.000-08:00

what i learned in 2011... (top 10)

1) guilt is a strong emotion... it can literally kill you.
2) people can be your friends one day, to be your enemies the next...
3) photography is fun.
4) cancer = scary
5) fashion kills
6) true bitchs are those who don't even realize it...
7) theres a lot of ways to spell "yeah"
8) it can be a the best day ever, but the next day, it'll be hell.
9) justin bieber is kewl
10) gamut is a real word.

i changed.

2011-12-19T23:43:00.000-08:00

i cant take anymor crap.

ive changed.... a lot.

i wont laugh at ur stupid jokes anymor.
i wont smile cuz ur my friend anymor.

i wont b so weak anymor.

i frikin serious,

i changed.

moments like this lasts forever...

2011-12-19T13:10:00.000-08:00

or at least till you finish your ice cream.

follow by email

2011-12-18T14:29:00.000-08:00

ok,

look at the views.

then scroll a little.

look at the followers.

~•~

3?!

this cant be right...

so.....

NEW GADGET!

Follow By Email

~left, on the top~

--taylor

turning point.

2011-12-18T00:09:00.000-08:00

turning point.

i felt it when i got into my car yesterday,

there's a lot going on (at home and in my personal life)

theres a dilemma,

i need to warn my friend...

if i do, i risk the friendship of two.

if i dont, my friend will be get hurt.

i just know that theres a turning point.

theres more to that too, but i won't go there.

i hope shes happy,

because after this turning point,

she'll won't be happy after she loses a few "friends".

i hope it comes true.

2011-12-17T22:03:00.000-08:00

today...

i wished on a star to make someone happy.

~•~

but if this wish comes true,

i'll be depressed and in pain for a long time.

~•~

because i gave away happiness,

to only receive more pain.

~•~

just please...

thank me later.

every morning...

2011-12-17T21:40:00.000-08:00

what you just experienced is what happens to me every morning....

-- taylor

i hope shes happy (4)

2011-12-17T12:42:00.000-08:00

i hope shes happy.

she gets everything she wants and causes pain to others.
but worse...

she doesnt know how many people she has hurt.
she doesnt realize how many times i almost killed myself because she made me feel so down on myself.

she doesnt realize how tough it is for me (just to be here)
yet,
she still ignores me when we're in the same room.
she never tells me anything... but she forces answers out me.

i hope shes happy.
because now,
im definitely not support you because you take advantage of us.
yes, us.
im not the only bitch you torture.

epic win?

2011-12-15T21:54:00.001-08:00

i thought it was an epic win wen i found a new pack of led on the ground....

but then, i realized that i only had 0.7 pencils....
nd the led pack as 0.5 ø-ø

stars.

2011-12-15T21:03:00.000-08:00

after standing outside (till my head started hurting),

i just noticed that there are stars at nighttime...

like i know that they're there, i just never saw them....

yes, the sky was always black to me (no stars)...

its like a big discovery in my world....

this is how you know your eyes were fucked up ever since the beginning....

-- taylor.

true story

2011-12-14T21:59:00.000-08:00

<3 <3 <3

i hope shes happy.... (3)

2011-12-11T21:12:00.000-08:00

i hope shes happy....

she gave me a reason to sigh.
she gave me a reason to cry.
she gave me a reason to sit aside.
she gave me a reason to die.

i hope shes happy.

i hope shes happy.... (2)

2011-12-11T21:01:00.000-08:00

i hope shes happy...

i would trust her with my life

but she wouldn't...

i would tell her anything

but she wouldn't...

she'll get more wishes.

she'll get more sympathy.

she'll get more everything.

but i won't.

i hope shes happy.

i hope she's happy (1)

2011-12-11T18:42:00.000-08:00

i hope shes happy.......

cause i did so much to help dat bitch...........

and there's still a 99.99% that she'll ingore me once again........

everything looks better with...

2011-12-11T12:30:00.000-08:00

everything looks better with justin bieber :O

...

just saying.

2) torn

2011-12-10T00:47:00.000-08:00

six deaths. it still hurts.

even though its been a year already,

it feels only yesterday that i last saw you guys...

When do your teardrops roll?

Of course, when the bad time thunder.

Your head swirls,

Your heart burns and aches,

You feel torn.

Sitting on your bed at 1:00 am,

Woken from the storm outside,

Thinking of how your life gone up side down.

Torn

Lying down in the hospital,

Sick and ill,

Cannot move,

Torn.

Facing against your friends,

Torn.

Watching your dog die.

Torn.

So, when do your teardrops roll?

When you are torn.

wrote that in 5th grade (2009) when, then, i didn't know how feels to fall... hard.

(btw, i won a contest with this... you can only guess what i was doing while i wrote it...)

yes.

2011-12-08T19:09:00.000-08:00

yes. it would.

someday....

2011-12-06T21:16:00.000-08:00

someday. i'll lay in the fields forever.
someday. i'll collapse when i breathe no more.
someday. i'll follow the path of happiness.
someday. i'll lost track of time and crash into darkness.

someday. u'll realize that i'm right in front of you.
somehow. i'll find my way.
somewhere. i'll meet you halfway.
someway. i'll figure it out.

i wish today could last forever

2011-12-05T21:03:00.001-08:00

~~today was one of the best.~~
today was the best.

my inspiration

2011-12-05T19:42:00.000-08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FJtq9Gihd4k&feature=g-all&context=G10458FAAAAAAAADAA

my inspiration :)

The Only Values I Follow

2011-12-05T19:18:00.000-08:00

<3 <3 <3

sometimes...

2011-12-04T15:03:00.000-08:00

sometimes, i wish that things would change.....

~•~

and once they do....

i realize how stupid i am and how much i regret it

~•~

if you know what i mean (agree), <3 this

True Lyrics

2011-12-04T12:50:00.000-08:00

"what can you if your good isn't good enough?"

-- Get It Right (Glee)

"i always forget to tell you, i <3 you"

-- Superman (Taylor Swift)

"It's like you're pouring salt in my cuts."

-- Fix A Heart (Demi Lovato)

"One day, when the sky is falling, I'll be standing right next to you."

-- (Chris Brown ft. Justin Bieber)

-- We Found Love (Rihanna)

today... (ep. 1: broccoli)

2011-12-03T20:45:00.000-08:00

today...

my little cousin said to me...

" i don't like broccoli! i HATE it!"

and i said...

then, she made a face that looked like this :O

And We're Back To December

2011-12-01T20:57:00.000-08:00

and we're back to december

before,

this was the worst time of the year.

now,

i'll make sure it's the best.

What's Great Today

2011-12-01T19:19:00.000-08:00

a) that feeling that you could run forever

b) that awkward moment when you walk the other way, just to avoid someone

c) that time your teacher hated you for everything

d) that fail when it looks like you pushed someone's bike (when you didn't)

e) that game you play when you don't care both how messy your hair was

f) that memory that will last forever <3

This is what's great today :)

Heart Necklace

2011-11-29T22:06:00.000-08:00

So, recently, I bought this heart necklace. (I have a very strange logic, where I think that EVERY necklace I buy is a "good luck" charm) Of course, that's not true. But, this heart necklace is truly magical. No, not Wizards-Of-Waverly-Place kind of magical but like, DOUBLE-RAINBOW-ALL-THE-WAY-ACROSS-THE-SKY kind of magical.

But... it only works for relationships (<3).

Ways it doesn't work:

Failed a test (not lucky....)

Ways it works:

Was placed in the front for dance, WHERE ONLY GOOD PEOPLE GO. so honored :O (helped the relationship with teacher)
TONS OF LAUGH, almost crying (relationship with friend)
hugged a ton of people (relationship with..... a ton of people :D)

Dear __________.....

2011-11-28T22:17:00.000-08:00

Dear guy I like: i <3 u. its pretty stupid cause i know who u like lol (its not me) ø-ø
Dear ex bestfriend: i miss u guys, but yea.... i know its too late though....
Dear bestfriend: i <3 u guys. probably would not even be here without you :)
Dear mom: thanks. you might yell A TON. but i know its for the best....
Dear dad: i <3 how u understand that i need a new number/phone... (hotwired -_-)
Dear future me: PLEASE do not die young. i may wish that a million times.....

but once you hit rock bottom, there's only one way to go, back up :)

Weekly Ratings

2011-11-27T14:18:00.000-08:00

Today marks one WHOLE week ever since I created this blog!!
Last night, I added a gadget where you can see the weekly ratings and I was shocked. I thought I would get only 30-40 views but have you checked that things?? (left)

Thank you to those who follow every post and to those who just check in every once in a while. This is pretty crazy (to me) and it means a lot <3

i used to think pikachu was okay...

2011-11-26T20:26:00.000-08:00

i used to think pikachu was okay.

but now.....

hes. frikin. hot.

In Your Arms -- Kina Grannis

2011-11-25T21:43:00.000-08:00

Truly amazing :)

Yes. Those are jelly beans.

agreed.

2011-11-25T21:35:00.000-08:00

agreed.

What I'm Thankful For

2011-11-24T13:06:00.000-08:00

I'm thankful for the people I've met. (even though some are in a better place)
I'm thankful for the people who laugh with me, not at me.
I'm thankful for the people who believe even though it's dark.
I'm thankful for all my best friends, good friends, and regular friends :)
I'm thankful for my ohana. (here and at school)
I'm thankful for the run and the swim. (<3 cross-country <3)

and now that I realize it, there's a lot to be thankful for :)

for all you bloodsuckers and werewolves...

2011-11-23T23:42:00.000-08:00

<3 team jacob? or team edward?? <3

1) If I Could Go Back In Time...

2011-11-23T10:06:00.000-08:00

Was it easy? No.
Was it tough? Definitely.
Did anyone even know? A few. (most don't even know I exist still)

Let's start from the beginning....
I was born with the wrong name. I never had a baby shower. No one cared. I don't know if it was how my parents are or if I noticed all the differences between my parents and I. But when I was just 3, I thought I was adopted. As I grew a little older, I learned how to play the piano with a strict teacher. Two hours each night of yelling, crying, and mistakes on piano. I always hated yelling for some reason. I remember when my sister and I used to fight. One time, I promised that I'd never talk again. But later that night, I was talking my head off... I also remember the girl's day cakes my parents used to buy us. (March 3rd) On the fondant layered cake, there was chocolate shaped as two girls. The slightly bigger, purple one was my sister. The smaller, pink one was me. Those were the good days. If I could go back in time to a single day, it would have been that day...

-- taylor

lame.

2011-11-22T21:29:00.000-08:00

i am so lame.
today, we had athletic awards and Coach was talking about endurance and commitment while i was the one that a tendinitis band and a injured foot....
yay for endurance and commitment...

a friend that hurts.

2011-11-21T23:10:00.000-08:00

10% pissed, (you're lucky how your life can't help but be great.)

85% depressed, (why can't you see?</3)

4% focused, (what's the point......)

1% hopeful (always keep it, even though it's almost gone....<3)

dedicated to a friend that hurts.

Drama-Free Day :)

2011-11-21T21:18:00.000-08:00

I've never been the "let go and move on" kind of person... But today, I completely forgot what made me sad these past days :) Thanks to my friends and my camera (with its "awesome" pictures.)

*Lately, there's been a ton drama and weird stuff going on and I've been depressed often... (But hey, life's tough, ehh?)*

Anyways, today was great :3 (Thanks to Lee + Tyler + Chris + Matt + everyone else.) I found out that markers can be quite dangerous and that scraping your foot is not very pleasant. So many inside jokes :) I got to admit, today was one of the best.(But the best day I've had was when I met ________<3.)

i hope everyday lasts forever like today.
--tayyy

i miss them.

2011-11-20T16:54:00.000-08:00

i miss them.
even though they never came to any of my award ceremonies or my piano recitals. they never wished me a happy birthday or wrote me a christmas card. they never gave me hugs whenever i cried and it was almost like as if i 've never met them.
but i did.

but now that their gone, i miss them.

Intro :)

2011-11-20T13:50:00.000-08:00

Welcome!
Even though the title of this blog is "unexpected ending", here's what to expect...

Unlike other unique blogs about bucket lists, average life, and entertainment, unexpected ending is about all of that! Yup, you just read that right. But there's a twist, this is blog is told as a story, from her eyes, the unspoken side of an invisible girl. (Okay, she isn't really invisible. In fact, she's kind of social...) But once you see how her life is, you'll know the truth....

Well,
Thanks for reading the VERY FIRST post on unexpected ending and I hope you'll enjoy our story :)

BTW, be sure to read every post or you'll fall behind in our story!!